I've begun to think over
What Paul said 'bout the calling
Of course, I'm still imitating and meditating
The hard walk can't wait any longer
Got no choice other than moving forward
May day by day getting better and closer
Forsaking hopelessness to hopefulness
How long have I been gone?

In many ways, to you whom I've been disappointing
Listen I can't explain it to make you understand,
Unless you don't hear what I say
And rather listen what you prefer
Applied both ways so no more force it either way
To say that we're both torn apart
Maybe indeed we are
Have we tried our ways?
Yeah, what seems to make sense though fails
Is there something else I can do?
I'm afraid I can't do it for you
Whatever this is
If it's something I did bad in the past
I apologise to you to have known me
I apologise to make you feel me
I apologise to have wronged
Then called for you
One time I thought of you as someone significant,
While we haven't even gone to the basics yet

Don't rush me to choose right away
I'm not in the position to bet on hard-to-get romance
Or else, it's about to get sour
Might take another risk beside this endless pursuit
Boy, I got something else to focus
It may seem I have nothing to lose
But I've lost my soul
To my surprise, I've been given back life
If I had not been saved, you wouldn't have seen me last

From now on, I will think of you humanly
Changes on your looks, much intimidating
Save more time giving you a compliment
If you wonder whether you're a good guy,
You still are, looking through a different lens
Pop hasn't told anything a lot about you
But, assuredly, He knows a secret that two lovers know
He's been doing his own things lately I can't even comprehend
Many times it must be for the greater good
Humbly reminding long enough I've settled
Neglected parts I recently gotta deal with

Believe me, I would have had a crush
On the teenager you
Only if I first came through
When as a matter of fact, in the family I'm a Joseph
I promise you nothing more
You're free to take the next ride
Don't want to fill my mind up with remnant Prejudices when I see you sometime
And so do you to me
I know the image of me
Must have left bad assumptions imprinted
On your brain, just like the song
Famous Donny would sing over and over
Almost same as the lyrics being implied
From unrequited to unsaid
As told, we've loved
Where time has saved

About this hurt, I hope you've found the healer
Mending these broken hearts
Let it not be your wings got broken all along
Please, don't go searching the other way or places
To this, the all truth you've been seeking too
Neither mine, yours, nor ours
But His, may you be willing


#feel #honesty #musings #letgo #letgod
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