I miss you, I miss everyone.
I'm gonna go all insane.
I wish I could go back.
In time to when I was fine.
I don't want to face it.
This failure is neverending.
My mistakes still follow.
How will I tell the truth.
Denial seems to comfort.
Maybe tomorrow I'll.
Wake up in another place.
Because this life sucks.
I'm tired of being myself.
Everybody saying I'm loved.
But I can't feel no love.
Everybody that loved me.
Ended up so far away.
So I don't want to think.
On my failures and faults.
I am really not alright.
My sadness is boiling up.
Maybe life would be better.
If I wasn't here present.
But I ain't gonna do that.
Cause then I'll be a coward.
That let his demons win.
But if I let myself lose.
I guess it serves the purpose.
I have not been okay at all.
But I've learned to pretend.
Always been doing that.
Seems to work sometimes.
Please just leave me alone.
Feel like I'll go insane.
Piling all these mistakes.
I don't need a helping hand.
All I need is my death.
To rest for eternity now.
I hate everything I have.
I hate that I still love you.
Hate that I'm like this.
Hate how much I fail.
Every time I did say.
I'll do better next time.
Fucking liar I am.
Keep lying to myself.
Saying we'll figure it out.
We are not doing that.
I'm not gonna be right.
Wish I could suicide.
Then I'd be finally fine.

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