"are you scared to be in love?"
they asked, their voice tinted in curiosity
pure, but somehow with a hint of teasing
almost as if backing me up into depravity

their eyes glimmered for the unknown
they've seen so much, loved a bunch
I cannot help but wonder each time
what more could be hidden under those sight

but I digress, before I fall astray any further
but the person in front of me that night
were as beautiful and kind as ever
they might be blind to it, might even deny it
but I do, know of them and their heart

"quite on the contrary, you see"
I inhaled deeply, my lungs filled with their scent
"I like you a lot-" their eyes glistened for one second
then I could almost hear something in them shatter
as I put an end to my next sentence

"-but I can't bring myself to love you, dear,
for that I'm so sorry"
their silence felt so heavy, deafening, so wrong
but it was all honesty, for I can't bear
to hurt and confuse them anymore, it's been too long

I chased to meet their eyes, seemingly so lost
on my own blood I swear, I swear I've tried
so tell me now why I'm only inhaling regret
when their gaze seeked no more solace in mine
when a bead of tear they tried to hide with a smile

but I simply can't find it in my soul
to be with them and be a person whole
"forgive me dear, for I can never love you right"
their heart is delicate, and to fit it into my hands
perhaps I am in fact, scared

it's not for me, I suppose
"though I pray may someone with a heart of satin
come and embrace yours,"

© lostboyzephyr