Lil Wayne once said, "Throw dirt on me and grow a wildflower"
I said fuck the world there ain't no love for her.
All my life people have treated me as an afterthought
The way I cared for people was something that was never brought(up)

Got two friends lost em both
I lost them when the knife of pain was running down my throat
Lost my faith got it back
Ecstatic memories is something I can't find on my mindrack

Cause everytime that I contemplate
there's something that resurfaces
Something gore something that defaces.

Everything was falling apart ain't nobody ever cared
That's why I hid my scars, they were something which I'd never bared.
Thorns and storns I can deal with but not knives stabbed on my back
If you are furious say it aloud, don't say it behind my back.

But then I found someone who wanted to take a look at my scars
I hesitated but her attitude lowered my who's bar
She saw them, flinched and put ointment on it
I bit my lip to stop those tears, the love she gave was more than medicine for pain
she loved me without having any thoughts of personal gain
But I was afraid, ashamed that I'd be taking advantage of her,
She was in a low spot I'll be by her side but proposal? That's be betrayal to her.

So I ain't gon pop the question anytime soon, till you're ready
It's be better if you came with the proposal baby.

Rejection is my thing, so love is not really my platter,
I don't need a relationship just don't end our friendship, nothing will make me sadder.


Yours in this life, the previous one and the afterlife



© Dhritiman