I am confused , which way should i take ;
Should i end myself ?
Or should i live for others ?
The blade over my table is waiting ,
To take the blood of my nerves !
Its waiting eagerly to go deep ,
Through my veins ;
Though there are also my parents ,
Waiting to see my bright name in future ;
Living their lives for me .
Yet ! I am trapped among all !

Though there are also devils ,
Waiting eagerly to shut my mouth forever!
I also have a rope
Tight enough to hold me ,
Send me to another world .
There are also some persons in my life ;
Waiting to see my smile ,
Yet ! I am trapped among all !

I have a life , which they made worse ,
Returning to it will ensure me pain ,
I have some pills ,
Ensuring me peace within seconds ,
Ensuring me freedom from the world !
Though i have a dream ;
Which is my purpose to born in this world .
I want it to fullfil .
I am much confused ,
And yet ! I am trapped among all !

Though I am already dead ,
Still waiting to stop breathing of my body ,
I am tired of continuous fighting ;
Though I don't want to be called loser;
After i died ,
The loser tag will remain with Me ,
If i did it, forever !
Which way should i take ?
I am confused .

© Bishal kalita