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I want to die but "Not By Suicide"
I want to die
but not by suicide,
my heart is not broken,
somebody please kill me.
I have got all the love ;
but I am empty inside,
I want to die
but not by suicide.
Constant chaos in my head
tangles me,
I am stuck in the fences of delusion,
I am a replaceable soul,
this life seems to me as an elusion.
Living is a daunting task,
I am exhausted by existing,
Breathing makes me nauseous,
My brain cells are twisting.
Kill me already God,
I am ready to go,
ready to rot in hell,
or for a good heaven flow.
When I die just make sure,
It doesn't cost at all,
Can't die as another disappointment,
Can't give my family another fall,
Let me die like a fly,
Nobody cares when they die,
Nobody wants them to stay,
Let me get out of their way.
I am not a coward,
I am not weak,
I am fighting all days,
but I am reaching towards the peak,
My gut is wrenching to the core,
My eyes are popping to the floor,
I'll wake up next day,
I'll swim to the shore.
© VanS
but not by suicide,
my heart is not broken,
somebody please kill me.
I have got all the love ;
but I am empty inside,
I want to die
but not by suicide.
Constant chaos in my head
tangles me,
I am stuck in the fences of delusion,
I am a replaceable soul,
this life seems to me as an elusion.
Living is a daunting task,
I am exhausted by existing,
Breathing makes me nauseous,
My brain cells are twisting.
Kill me already God,
I am ready to go,
ready to rot in hell,
or for a good heaven flow.
When I die just make sure,
It doesn't cost at all,
Can't die as another disappointment,
Can't give my family another fall,
Let me die like a fly,
Nobody cares when they die,
Nobody wants them to stay,
Let me get out of their way.
I am not a coward,
I am not weak,
I am fighting all days,
but I am reaching towards the peak,
My gut is wrenching to the core,
My eyes are popping to the floor,
I'll wake up next day,
I'll swim to the shore.
© VanS
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