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Didn't Know Who I Was
My childhood life
is quite different from
your childhood days,
you can't assume
that you know me
From their point of view,
if they never knew who I was.
You haven't been born,
when I lived my life in 1996
my mom knows everything
about me from my whole life,
you shouldn't turn to other
people to get to know me.
I am not the person,
how you complain about me
to your best friends.
My mom knows everything,
about my whole life more
then I remember myself,
she actually can answer
your question about me.
She had been with me
from the day I was born,
whatever I exercise with my mom
She describes me as quiet and mostly obedient,
she told me I had behaved neurotypically
exactly just like extroverts do.
Why I am the way I am?
as you won't know,
from our Chinese-Asian Culture
we have to respect and treat
older and elderly people equally
to make them proud of us.
You didn't know who I was,
because I had a Gemini life
that I am self-conscious to be honest about.
Didn't want to hurt you internally
but, can't control how I behave neurotypically
can't help myself from imitating, or mirroring
to make other people feel safe and comfortable around me.
I used to live a spoiled life as an only child.
Because of lacking self-sufficiency,
had been born with a disability
that affects me can't do things by myself,
when I was born
I was only raised by my mom,
when my dad wasn't at home often.
When both of my parents
were busy and weren't at home.
I wasn't exactly just like you
from my childhood days,
instead had a lot of
babysitters to look after me,
didn't expect people in my elementary school
treat me well and equally as everybody else was.
When I started at Rose Hill Junior High School,
they assumed and expected me to
had exact academic skills as them
instead, I have been recommended
to exact Redmond Middle School and
special ed program as you,
instead of going there.
Transferred to another neurodivergent
education in Bellevue,
didn't know that people in my middle school
treat me well and equally as everybody else was,
relate to Clifford The Big Red Dog
my family and I moved out from
our old house and lived on an island.
when I start my first day in high school,
all I remember was being busy,
do things independently, carry choir-loaded and volunteer responsibilities.
as a junior in high school
didn't know who I was,
never knew how tired or unhappy I was
even not realize if I am trapped or not,
high school rumors about me
follow me after I graduated high school.
they didn't know I had struggled with my
mental health they only saw me as a bad person,
due to how I behave inappropriately with my
high school crush,
I have been busy since the winter of 2017
took the bus on my own.
Use to take four-course classes,
took the Chinese language class
outside of college,
spend a lot of time
with you and new people.
To be honest with you,
I had been through
what you experience in life,
never told you I used to feel
the same way you are feeling
unlike you,
I haven't told anyone
what I feel and what I
experience in life.
But, afraid you know
who I was from my past life
I feel unsafe and uncomfortable
around you and the people that you
always trust and agree with you,
to the point where
is sending me over the edge.
It affects me how I treated you badly
had neurotypical and neurodivergent reason
haven't told anyone about who I was,
because I used to have experience
having people treat me poorly, and
had people use me.
After we break up,
after you move away from
your previous house in Seattle,
it makes me distance myself
even more and I currently stop
talking to you due to how
you introduced me as a friend.
And how my life experience in 1996
still have a connection with your life in 1998,
there are two opportunities we could have
be best friends but, you had moved from
Redmond to Seattle.
If I haven't been busy,
in Bellevue College in 2017
we could've been best friends,
I am a Gemini and I am
picky about friendships
that you have especially
your best friends.
I didn't mean to hurt your best friend intensely
is just that I am a Gemini, and I am
picky when comes to your friendship
choices, especially Emma and Mina,
you had misunderstood
certain things about me
due to believe and assume,
who I was from other people
and your best friend's decisions
about me.
You and other people that you
trust and agree with
didn't know who I was.
-Laura So
© LauraGemini
is quite different from
your childhood days,
you can't assume
that you know me
From their point of view,
if they never knew who I was.
You haven't been born,
when I lived my life in 1996
my mom knows everything
about me from my whole life,
you shouldn't turn to other
people to get to know me.
I am not the person,
how you complain about me
to your best friends.
My mom knows everything,
about my whole life more
then I remember myself,
she actually can answer
your question about me.
She had been with me
from the day I was born,
whatever I exercise with my mom
She describes me as quiet and mostly obedient,
she told me I had behaved neurotypically
exactly just like extroverts do.
Why I am the way I am?
as you won't know,
from our Chinese-Asian Culture
we have to respect and treat
older and elderly people equally
to make them proud of us.
You didn't know who I was,
because I had a Gemini life
that I am self-conscious to be honest about.
Didn't want to hurt you internally
but, can't control how I behave neurotypically
can't help myself from imitating, or mirroring
to make other people feel safe and comfortable around me.
I used to live a spoiled life as an only child.
Because of lacking self-sufficiency,
had been born with a disability
that affects me can't do things by myself,
when I was born
I was only raised by my mom,
when my dad wasn't at home often.
When both of my parents
were busy and weren't at home.
I wasn't exactly just like you
from my childhood days,
instead had a lot of
babysitters to look after me,
didn't expect people in my elementary school
treat me well and equally as everybody else was.
When I started at Rose Hill Junior High School,
they assumed and expected me to
had exact academic skills as them
instead, I have been recommended
to exact Redmond Middle School and
special ed program as you,
instead of going there.
Transferred to another neurodivergent
education in Bellevue,
didn't know that people in my middle school
treat me well and equally as everybody else was,
relate to Clifford The Big Red Dog
my family and I moved out from
our old house and lived on an island.
when I start my first day in high school,
all I remember was being busy,
do things independently, carry choir-loaded and volunteer responsibilities.
as a junior in high school
didn't know who I was,
never knew how tired or unhappy I was
even not realize if I am trapped or not,
high school rumors about me
follow me after I graduated high school.
they didn't know I had struggled with my
mental health they only saw me as a bad person,
due to how I behave inappropriately with my
high school crush,
I have been busy since the winter of 2017
took the bus on my own.
Use to take four-course classes,
took the Chinese language class
outside of college,
spend a lot of time
with you and new people.
To be honest with you,
I had been through
what you experience in life,
never told you I used to feel
the same way you are feeling
unlike you,
I haven't told anyone
what I feel and what I
experience in life.
But, afraid you know
who I was from my past life
I feel unsafe and uncomfortable
around you and the people that you
always trust and agree with you,
to the point where
is sending me over the edge.
It affects me how I treated you badly
had neurotypical and neurodivergent reason
haven't told anyone about who I was,
because I used to have experience
having people treat me poorly, and
had people use me.
After we break up,
after you move away from
your previous house in Seattle,
it makes me distance myself
even more and I currently stop
talking to you due to how
you introduced me as a friend.
And how my life experience in 1996
still have a connection with your life in 1998,
there are two opportunities we could have
be best friends but, you had moved from
Redmond to Seattle.
If I haven't been busy,
in Bellevue College in 2017
we could've been best friends,
I am a Gemini and I am
picky about friendships
that you have especially
your best friends.
I didn't mean to hurt your best friend intensely
is just that I am a Gemini, and I am
picky when comes to your friendship
choices, especially Emma and Mina,
you had misunderstood
certain things about me
due to believe and assume,
who I was from other people
and your best friend's decisions
about me.
You and other people that you
trust and agree with
didn't know who I was.
-Laura So
© LauraGemini
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