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I failed myself again
I failed, I dropped the ball.
I am not a special kid.
I am still in so much awe,
of the one's who've loved me.
I failed again and I know,
chances can't just reappear.
Goodnight to my shadow.
He's the only one here,
keeping me in some company.
While I stare at this phone,
decide I don't want to sleep,
but don't want to be awake.
Give me back my hours,
the ones I wasted online,
because I'm too fuckin lonely,
and it's not really healthy,
but I got nothing left,
just to procrastinate forever.
I'm still too hurt inside.
I never ever asked to be alive.
They say it's a blessing,
and I guess it can be,
but I'm tired of running,
from all of my own nihilism.
What if I get another chance?
It's already all fucked up,
too much work has piled up,
while I was wasting time,
forgetting her pretty face,
the million demons in my head.
© dats_poetry
I am not a special kid.
I am still in so much awe,
of the one's who've loved me.
I failed again and I know,
chances can't just reappear.
Goodnight to my shadow.
He's the only one here,
keeping me in some company.
While I stare at this phone,
decide I don't want to sleep,
but don't want to be awake.
Give me back my hours,
the ones I wasted online,
because I'm too fuckin lonely,
and it's not really healthy,
but I got nothing left,
just to procrastinate forever.
I'm still too hurt inside.
I never ever asked to be alive.
They say it's a blessing,
and I guess it can be,
but I'm tired of running,
from all of my own nihilism.
What if I get another chance?
It's already all fucked up,
too much work has piled up,
while I was wasting time,
forgetting her pretty face,
the million demons in my head.
© dats_poetry
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