Subscribing and unsubscribing from emotions is the technique I need,
My heart can't take it anymore
Loving you is beautiful yet seems dutiful and at times burdensome.
A single stare was enough,
It took a few moments to exchange words ,
Yet my heart was already burning in short notice,
It's like our souls collided at our first encounter ,
Unfortunately I'm the only one who felt the heat and saw the flame ignite



Funny how I wish I didn't feel nor love,
My heart would be safe ,
I built a storage in my mind ,
Where I keep track of broken memories not to mention counts of heart breaks
I'm immune to pain and rejection,
Yet everytime it happens it feels like brand new experience


I love alone and feel alone,
Perhaps you're not aware of my existence neither my emotions,
But it hurts to love you ,
It's self-torture to yearn for you
What if you belong to another?
What if you might never like me?,
I'm stuck with questions I'll never find answers to





© Lacracia Mathapelo