I was so hung up
on a past person
Who said they loved me
and then left like I was nothing

Reached for you when
You knew I was still hurting
Gave love another go
Gave you a chance to fix me
While you're with me

Sure I still loved her
But then again
I was like fuck her
Let me show her that
I'm better off without her
With someone who I know
Will hold me and
Love me better
Til whenever...

It's whatever...

Yeah I'll write poems
Draft me some love letters
About you while
I'm with someone new
Then give her my sweater
Lie and say that
I'll love her forever
When I mean never
Just to keep her
For my pleasure

I sprayed it with my perfume
Coz I've got nothing to lose
Persue our dreams with her
Even when my hopes were few

I'll try even though I know
we won't last forever
At least she's better than you
She's the glue that's
keeping me together

Little did I know
She's the home
That would leave
me "the disaster"
That I'd end up like you
Nude, barefoot,
missing a shoe
Burnt with blisters

Who would've know
She'd be the bird that
deserted it's master
That her love would
abandon me on my knees
and flee even faster

I knew I was right
I'm always the
one left shattered
Coz love's messy
Makes you bleed
Leaves a stain
Yeah it sprays
And it splatters

Tears you apart
Stomps your heart
Drives you insane
Leaves you tattered
Battered and bandaged

Self fulfilled prophecies
Victim mentality
Starts to chatter
They all ignore me
And my needs
Guess I really don't matter

Nothing matters...

© Juno James