V. THE ANSWERS YOU SEEK - DELAYED

In the silence I've asked, 'Is he appointed for me?'
Answers of confirmation were sent my way
Taking it back to God, needing a lot courage to muster up
Getting troubled with the battle between heart and mind
To pick up the indirect messsage obviously
Rationalising my feelings has gotten in the way
Not so clueless but ended up not believing any
Till suddenly all of that stopped
Hesitation has always been the area of my problem
Don't blame me for not being such an expert

Can't be bound to picture any particular person as my man
Don't know how to point out my feelings
Come along this far, tough call, buddy
This is my way of treading yours lightly
I ... you actually, okay fill the blank
But, why can't I be honest?
I'm sorry you don't get the answers you've been wanting
Everytime you're running to me, it's been delayed
I am the cause and also the reason to blame
Have you prayed for miracles? Perhaps, yours will be granted
Many bring up divine intervention,
A Godly conversation among the saints and impostors,
Revolving around the screen, don't you notice?
Worry not, just rest, don't fret
Whether it's happening or not
Love that happens naturally is worth waiting, be expectant
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© Lensed° NP

PS. partly an excerpt of my written poem
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