it wasn't age rubbin'
itself on you, you weren't numb,
your dad said you'd got homework
There wasn't a knock at your door.

like bees on a sunflower swarm,
we were else where, a newbie;
Lucia, the barber's daughter.
We let you wear it all, the woe!

Watchin' ya knock you out,
with pills 'nd wide open spaces
as for me, i said, "he outgrew us!"
But hey, you'll never roger that.

That day on the racetrack,
i saw you smiling at me
with freckles on your smile,
though for long you weren't
in this pack.

the other wolves thought you
paranoid, but me not!
Even when paramedics
hit your door to say you
took yourself!

i was at the opposite lawn
watchin'it roll out; the tears.
Sorry Lucien, but not a night
goes without me 'nd the guilt!

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#drugs
#addictions
#girls
#rejection
#teenagers





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