I want to live but I don't want to live.
My mind is split, into two different moods and attitudes. All I know is, I can't live like this, I have to choose or what am I going to do?
Impulsively wanting to end my life to start somewhere new. Uncontrollable urges are tempting me with bad intentions unto myself, there is no help for someone already in hell.
Influenced by my mind, split inside, one telling me to live, the other to die. I drive myself crazy thinking of this all the time. I've gone mad in the madness, all I see now are blurred lines, between what's real and what's not, because my mind is starting to rot with erratic thoughts, spinning my mind into knots I cannot untie, so it's strangling me slowly, losing air, mind unclear, death is near, this is the moment I've been waiting for. Time to leave this earth.

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