II. A LONG ROAD TO FORGIVENESS

Considering all the strict remarks
have escaped the corner of your lips
Might have also been the dishonest intent
I saw through the harsh tone you adjusted,
the least I expected
Entirely a different approach
than your earlier speech,
turning up concealed emotions
so untimely in the edge of dark hours

There again, not a chance you let me speak
I object, can't submit to the inflicted pain
more prolonged than necessary
Wishing all of it to fade away
Hurt alone, yet still no excuse not to heal
Or so I'm at least trying, why aren't you?

Here wondering 'til when will I ever be able
to stop weighing words?
Careful not to be full of stings
Rather pushing it all down
inside the deep pit of my throat
Almost like being in a lion's den,
however I'm scared of any untamed tongues
preying on my vast unspoken thoughts,
caught me already hemming and hawing
before any muscles get to move
Has it already surpassed yet
the seventy times seven for me to forgive?

Coming undone, I gotta say what's
allowed to let out vocally
sounded unbothered
by your troubled opinions
Each sigh I let out, God knows I've fought
these relentless battles of inner shutdown
Hard to tell, I have always felt unequipped
The familiar arena where I deal mostly
with the people whom I've outgrown
but verbals are kept restrained
and parts of me having been held captive

You've inclined Your ear to my struggles
The words You said embodies Your Power
Liberating my silent voices out of bondage
At last returned to the bed of my mouth
The seal be lifted off of the tip of tongue
Now, every letters of the sound can dance
loosely throughout the palatial ceilings
transformed better on a firm foundation
Thereby I'd like to stay in a position
Just leaning onto Your everlasting presence


#suffering #family #painful #heartbreaks #Silence
To be continued...
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📷: Paco Gomez