I will always be your shelter nothing lesser,
Even though you didn't really mean forever!
You were supposed to be my lifelong defender,
But now your my number one contender!
I guess it's time to surrender.

God grant me serenity,
Can you hear my sincerity?
All this negativity,
my veg relativity!

Can anyone hear me now?
Can anyone see me now?
'Cuz I've been screaming so loud!
I feel so alone in this crowd.
I'm ready to bleed out,
The scars in my heart feel so deep now!
Just wish someone could be proud.

Frozen tears like sorrow led spears,
Guess these arms I must bear.

You've cut through to my soul,
Snatched it up n left a hole!
My souls taken a toll whipped n kicked
Brutaly twisted and constricted
Inside conflicted turning demented
This we coulda prevented
Becoming resistant
Stunned we became this distant!

You took the spark to my heart
Doused n drowned it!

You've given this clown
His last broken crown.
No pulse, body shut down
My emotions rundown.

As I smoke some crystal,
I stand up n grab my pistol
Put it to my brain n cock it
But don't have the strength to pop it!
I scream as I drop it n run to the faucet
Take a hand full of pills 'cuz I heard that shit kills!

Now begging n pleading
"Please my wrists are bleeding!"
Try to stand up but get queezy.

Wake up with nracan in my veins,
paramedic chokes as we're speeding down main!
Look around, brand new clothes full of blood stains.
Still here I remain in the dark parts of your brain.
My memory you won't retain,
Untrap my soul, ignite my flames!


© Lyle Richards II