I. VERBALLY LOST

Known too long I've been held back
I've learned a meaning or two
To others, my presence is seen
as such thing somehow fearful
Only those refusing to admit
how threatened they actually are
by one's worth and humility
since the very beginning to discover

Already belated my eyes have opened up,
I've been fearful of me long enough
Took it naturally as my own flaws
Constrained by false intimacy,
so it is merely a disguise
of a covert intimidation
barely scratching the surface

Countless times, I'm trying to restore up
every valuable pieces of my identity
and longing to open up myself overtly
While just as expected, you tear
down my guard for
the sake of your self-comfort
You could say I was shaken for a moment

You don't want to set me free
But you set and tie me up
Tell me how does it sound to your ears?
The loving bond is getting less real
between a brother and a sister
Each year passing by, we just don't get by
Can't decide, it's really there or already gone
Don't wanna be unaffected at all
by your dismissal purposefully done
I'd rather disengage myself away
from the mistreatment no one's ever
fully deserved and felt submitted to

Since when have I agreed
to fulfill any urges and standards,
neither of which once occur
in my frame of mind
nor even be raised
from the bottom of my heart?
None of them comes along
out of the still small voice
that lives in me


#suffering #family #painful #heartbreaks #Silence
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