My heart is yearning to die right now
It's beating fast
Like it's punishing me
For all the times
I didn't stand for myself
Inorder to save
Someone else's reputation.

All the men that I've encountered in my life
Were all lascivious ones.
For all the barbaric behavior of their's
I was the one who suffered
All my life.

My near ones
Never in once asked me
How was I feeling.
I couldn't even spit about the
Mental traumas and torture
That I'm still going on.

I don't want to live
Inorder to get validation from others.
I can vividly understand
How much my near ones
Are caring for me.

I'm not even asking to hug or kiss
To show me your love,
But you don't even give me your ears
To hear me,
And I absolutely know
You really don't wish to hear from me.
All you want to see is
To get me married and have children
To pretend it as love.

Day by day
My heart keep racing
My yearning to leave this body
Is increasing too
Not because I don't love my life
I know my blessings ,
But because they like to see me
Lying all my life and blaming the fate.
They are afraid of running out
Of old pattern
And now I'm the one suffering for it.

© 🐳Praveena🌌✨️