I hate my big ass heart for it loves and cares too much about things.
I hate my big ass heart because it gets me hurt every time I think about people.
I hate my big ass heart it won't let me be big and bad and rough and tough because I had enough and it takes away from me and it can be emotionally draining.
I can't stop caring about things because I don't know how too.
I wish I could be big and bad and say no I've had enough I wish I had enough heart to be brave enough to get some people in real big trouble for fucking with me, but I don't know what to do or what do say, yet and yet again I get back lashed and Burnt out of my ways.
I want people who are bad news to listen to me and leave me alone,
but how can I say no is no when all people do is manipulation tactics that make me feel really really bad... because I care too much and it makes me very very sad I'm just confused and angry about it and I don't know how to change my ways of having a change of heart. When you are done with playing with my achy achy heart.
it hurts because some people are so dark and devious and seem to have demonic evils....they battle depression and they make you feel weak when you could be strong enough to just put your foot down and tell them to get out... and leave you alone. What do you do when you nothing to do with them...but they will never leave you be. I just wish sometimes I could be set free. from the burdens and trivials of trials this ain't no mile. It's a long journey of healing from my own mistakes. I wish I never let some people in. They never deserved my time of day or waste of effort on my good energy. I just literally just hate my heart.♥️
For being good to so many bad people over the years it's time to let go and move on, but can be harder than it seems as the battle moves on within my dreams. I hate myself in my ways of my heart and I want to let go where do I start?
The answer may never be revealed or revealed itself within time I should know what to really do with myself.