I try to find the reason,
for the way l feel today,
to only find, l always feel
Nothing but the same.

Every time I Smile,
I always falter once again
And sink within my mind
in my self impending pain.

Please help me to see,
how you can clear this
So that I can be,
Courageous and be fearless,
You’re the only one,
I know, who can help me through this,
As far as I can tell,
your Help I can't resist.

I try to convince myself,
And ascertain the reasons
why I feel the way I do
so I’ll have someone to blame.

But every time I do,
I find the hidden truth,
within my mind, just like a cloud
that shelters all the rain.

Please help me to see,
how you can clear this
So that I can be,
Courageous and be fearless,
You’re the only one,
I know, who can help me through this,
As far as I can tell,
your Help I can't resist.

I'm searching for a reason,
for the way I feel today,
to face my fears and all my pain
that never go away.

But every time l try,
to find a way,
I always falter back
where my pain within me stays.

And every time I try,
To ascertain the reason
way I feel the way I do,
I have no one to blame.

So reveal to me the hidden truth,
which is locked within your mind
so I can cleanse this life in time
Before I become deranged.

And in doing so,
I’m sure to find,
what’s its like to have a life
that is not in disarray.

In the meantime
I will search my reasons,
in addition to the archives in my mind
of the things I write about.

And just maybe I may find,
a hidden file that sits solo by itself,
which contains no hidden doubt.

But until my mind decides to let me in,
all I can really do is wait,
and be content in that I tried.

I've never been one to give up on life,
but at the rate this is going,
I'm convinced that I have died.

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