#AloneInCrowd

Imagine being in a room with people you know and still be alone
that cant happen you think?
like the world around you just starts blurring
...

People walking through me like I dont exist,
their voices get louder as the voice in my head fades,
you have a million people you call friends,
a thousand to say they care,
hundreds who promised to love you,
and a few who actually dared,
but when they all are gathered in one room,
in that whole crowd of people you know,
you are not lonely, you are just alone,
but that hurts, because they are people you know,
and now they are people you used to know...
Your own voice starts to annoy you,
your own habits, your own face,
your broken image of fairytales,
there would always be that one person you would search for in the crowd,
that one person whom you are deeply attached to,
but dont worry you wont sit alone on the bench,
your disappointment and your self-doubt will sit beside you,
when you get lost among everyone,
your mind fogged and you can barely feel anything,
the numbness of the pain,
you are not sad, you are just done,
you want to disappear cause you already dont exist,
they said they care,
but you know you are alone...

you are just a part of the crowd
you disappear with the loud voices
with their smiles and tears
dont expect for anyone to notice
that you are sitting in the corner
while the world is moving
you are still but breathing
but how long
you are on your own
people you know or people you dont
the whole world is a stranger
cause in that bright room filled with people
you sit with a screen's light in your hand
and a drink in another
while your tears reflect your wounds
they talk beside you about the gossip and drama
but dont worry
there is no rumor about you!

© ~notyourfavperson