I like you, really do,
but I dont feel butterflies,
I cant do without you,
but I dont shy away,
dont see myself blush,
dont get palpitations and my voice stuck,
but I smile so hard,
when I am without you thinking about the tiniest moments make me want to go back to them,
When you dont talk my overthinking brain cells assume reasons,
that villainize me,
I notice your absense deep in my soul,
I care for you like I dont want to,
I know its going to hurt me,
You are not a crush,
but my friends say so,
you dont give me the blood rush,
but you make me look and then I cant take my eyes off you,
dont know what a crush feels like,
but I dont think having one makes you feel what I feel for you,
the way I do,
its something in between friendship and hate,
but you drew the line on my bad fate,
I know if you had to write about me all that would be written will be empty space,
whereas for me you filled the blanks I left empty,
I promise to let go,
but it doesnt mean Ill stop caring,
You put a smile on my face just by existing,
and I want to put one on yours even if its by leaving,
hurting myself isnt worth it but it's what I want to do,
One day I hope someone tells me,
how a crush can make you feel this way,
like
you
just
want
to
confide
and
hide
in
their
shadow
like
you
just
want
to
cry
because
its
too
much
for
your
little
heart
to
find
someone
just
enough

like
you
make me feel
like
how you left me on seen
yet
every time I see you
I wish you are actually happy inside
cause if I see you sad
I might not be able to control myself
and talk to you...
© ~notyourfavperson