You called me out to hangout with your friends,
my awkwardness, you handled it,
should have told myself to not get attached,
I'll always be an option, but not the chosen,
sat down beside me,
I never dared to look you in the eye before,
but in just 2 conversations I let my walls down,
now every time your name pops up on my screen,
I know I'll fall in too deep,
I never meant to let you in,
but I did,
how foolish I am, to make the same mistake over and over again,
I use chocolates and music and watching shows like drugs,
just to keep you off my mind,
You are so nice and sweet, its hard to not like you,
wish I knew that thats who you are,
you are nice to everybody,
I am just a part of the crowd,
Its just so hard to believe that all these memories, all these feelings, the maybe's were all in my head,
Yes it happened but not the way I felt it did,
sitting on the bench,
where we first met,
wish I had known what we had was just an illusion,
but I am still going to hold on to the old you,
to that name to whom I meant something,
cause when I was just a piece of paper to you, for you to crumble,
Your name was laminated in my heart,
and by the time I realized,
it was too late,
you already let me go and I was hurt, I was sad,
but I guess its okay,
nothing good lasts forever,
and if anything, the pain was worth it
and no matter how hard I try
you'll always in my heart have a special place
♡



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