Reclusive Chaos
my concious sparks, and I sense a precarious movement throughout the room ......
Subtle thoughts start meandering through the mind as if two threads trying to bind to create a picture
my eyes begin shifting, toes curling upward. It's as if my being is spouting off a checklist to the rest of my body. Its cold.
I sense that precarious movement again. My eyes rise upward. only now that movement has now evolved into a presence. I grow nervous and I feel a tingle, as awry silence shrouds my atmosphere. My consious utters uneasily....Shes with me.....
My chest violently caves as i struggle to breath, This presence... This presence hates me. I can feel its sadistic fingers holding my mouth as i try screaming. Legs thrashing, heart pounding, vertigo arising, i attempt to plead for aid, but to no avail.. ...trying to sift through my options, I realize that theres nothing more i can do. I accept my fate. tears seeping out from under my eyelids as i circum to my attacker.
I feel a brief sense of relief that this experience is now over and that i may rest. I seek solice, and No faster than when i accepted fate ive been released. My body suddenly jerks my scream vocalized. My eyes.... Wide open... I sit up, while the threads finally conjoin and i hear the low hum of the central air and i realize.... nobodies coming. Nobodies coming to question this traumatizing endeavor that just engulfed me because nobodies there..... Shes not there....and that presence...... was yet again absence tormenting me yet, and now that im awake..... the real terrors begin. The hardest part in this realization is.... Id rather be asleep with the presence than awake with the absence. Tears roll down my cheek as i begin to curl back up to drift off again.
My friend is waiting
Subtle thoughts start meandering through the mind as if two threads trying to bind to create a picture
my eyes begin shifting, toes curling upward. It's as if my being is spouting off a checklist to the rest of my body. Its cold.
I sense that precarious movement again. My eyes rise upward. only now that movement has now evolved into a presence. I grow nervous and I feel a tingle, as awry silence shrouds my atmosphere. My consious utters uneasily....Shes with me.....
My chest violently caves as i struggle to breath, This presence... This presence hates me. I can feel its sadistic fingers holding my mouth as i try screaming. Legs thrashing, heart pounding, vertigo arising, i attempt to plead for aid, but to no avail.. ...trying to sift through my options, I realize that theres nothing more i can do. I accept my fate. tears seeping out from under my eyelids as i circum to my attacker.
I feel a brief sense of relief that this experience is now over and that i may rest. I seek solice, and No faster than when i accepted fate ive been released. My body suddenly jerks my scream vocalized. My eyes.... Wide open... I sit up, while the threads finally conjoin and i hear the low hum of the central air and i realize.... nobodies coming. Nobodies coming to question this traumatizing endeavor that just engulfed me because nobodies there..... Shes not there....and that presence...... was yet again absence tormenting me yet, and now that im awake..... the real terrors begin. The hardest part in this realization is.... Id rather be asleep with the presence than awake with the absence. Tears roll down my cheek as i begin to curl back up to drift off again.
My friend is waiting