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The Story of My Depression
Childhood days weren't easy for me at all, ever since I was 14 years old I was diagnosed with Dystonia which I inherited from my father's side, since that day I questioned God, "Why me? I'm so kind, but why me all the people in this world?", then there's my mother who was supposed to be my greatest ally in this world, but she was the one who scarred, maltreated, abused and killed me every day of my life.
My life was never been easy every day I needed to endure her bad and curse words, and I needed to hide my tears every day, living with this agony was hell before, she blamed me every day for this illness that I didn't want either, "Is it my fault?" She gave me these words every day "I'm worthless, useless, I got no brain, I must die right now, I'm burdened, giving birth to you was nonsense", Every day was a turmoil in my head questioning my worth, like where is motherhood in there?
I've been also bullied in school they spitted at me, wrecked my projects, and they also say words behind my back, my heart still aches remembering that phase of my life, because I still remember their names, like they were there all the time to hurt me and harm me in any way they can, every time that I go to school I'm so scared already what if they are just there in the surroundings waiting for me? And because of that, I've been traumatised.
Painful memories of my past haunts still haunt me me every day, make me less trust people, that they can hurt me anytime and no matter what I do I don't have the right to protect myself from them, and they'll put me through was unforgivable, pain, hurt and tears that's what they did to me, merciless, agonising and tragic that's what I've described my childhood days.
Depression and anxiety were hell and no matter what you could do there were no words for how to describe it, it has no gender, or you might be a girl or boy or LGBTQIA+ member, or you are rich or poor, whatever or whoever you are it can strike on you, you can't tell easily who's depressed or not, they are smiling always, so be gentle with your words and it can save a life and be kind always because you don't know what's going on with that person, love and care for others as you love yourself. After all, it will come back to you in unexpected ways.
© DandelionSky ✨️
My life was never been easy every day I needed to endure her bad and curse words, and I needed to hide my tears every day, living with this agony was hell before, she blamed me every day for this illness that I didn't want either, "Is it my fault?" She gave me these words every day "I'm worthless, useless, I got no brain, I must die right now, I'm burdened, giving birth to you was nonsense", Every day was a turmoil in my head questioning my worth, like where is motherhood in there?
I've been also bullied in school they spitted at me, wrecked my projects, and they also say words behind my back, my heart still aches remembering that phase of my life, because I still remember their names, like they were there all the time to hurt me and harm me in any way they can, every time that I go to school I'm so scared already what if they are just there in the surroundings waiting for me? And because of that, I've been traumatised.
Painful memories of my past haunts still haunt me me every day, make me less trust people, that they can hurt me anytime and no matter what I do I don't have the right to protect myself from them, and they'll put me through was unforgivable, pain, hurt and tears that's what they did to me, merciless, agonising and tragic that's what I've described my childhood days.
Depression and anxiety were hell and no matter what you could do there were no words for how to describe it, it has no gender, or you might be a girl or boy or LGBTQIA+ member, or you are rich or poor, whatever or whoever you are it can strike on you, you can't tell easily who's depressed or not, they are smiling always, so be gentle with your words and it can save a life and be kind always because you don't know what's going on with that person, love and care for others as you love yourself. After all, it will come back to you in unexpected ways.
© DandelionSky ✨️
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