I'm sulking again at one of the four corners of my room, I'm crying again because I'm hurt, silently and painfully, the pain and the miseries I've been through weren't easy at all, trying to figure things out, as the tears ran flow once again, as my sobs becoming louder and louder because of the flashbacks of the traumatic events from the start, I can't forget that's my problem, I don't get love from my childhood, I was abused.

No one comforted me when I was a child when I was hurt I needed to collect myself and be okay already because no one would be there for me, the ones who were supposed to be my greatest ally in this world going be like just staring at me while crying, and yes she's my mother, the ones who made me cry for so long, I'm gonna hide myself in my room crying and watching myself falling apart, day by day it's a routine.

No one was there for me I was all alone, and they all abandoned me when I needed them most, as I reminisce my childhood memories until now it's been the same, neglected and full of painful childhood that haunts me every day and every time, I've been through a lot since my childhood days and now, I was so naive back then that I didn't know how to speak or to fight, but I know already now that you may know me but not my whole story.

Now, I am trying to collect all the pieces that they shattered and I am healing, I know that it's going to be hard but I know that it's worth it, I'm still crying but that's part of the process, there is no harm in trying but day by day I'm getting better, happiness doesn't come easily I know but it will happen and come soon, and by that time happens I'm going to celebrate it's going to be a beautiful and memorable day and I know it's worth the effort and wait.


Title credits: Michael

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