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After the Fact
I'm calling on you, Lord,
Albeit after the fact.
Because I've lost my mind
And it may never come back.
It seems my heart and my mind
Have lost touch with my soul.
I know something's quite wrong,
For my thinking's not whole.
Is this a crisis of conscience?
Or perhaps a spiritual phase?
And if I've ruined my mind
Can my soul still be saved?
If I've offended you so badly
That I cannot be fixed,
Will I then be condemned
To a trip down the Styx?
I will give first fruits of sorrow,
Fall to my knees and repent,
In return, I ask only
That you hear my lament.
I will seek your kingdom first,
Asking for only your love,
But please banish these demons
I've become so afraid of.
I'm truly sorry, my Lord,
And yes, I'm afraid,
But that's not the reason
I regret the choice that I made.
I realize now that my actions
Have been insulting to you.
Disrespecting this life,
That by grace was made new.
Still, I beseech you, my Lord,
Albeit, after the fact,
Will you make my mind whole?
And bring my sanity back?
© Linda Troxell
Albeit after the fact.
Because I've lost my mind
And it may never come back.
It seems my heart and my mind
Have lost touch with my soul.
I know something's quite wrong,
For my thinking's not whole.
Is this a crisis of conscience?
Or perhaps a spiritual phase?
And if I've ruined my mind
Can my soul still be saved?
If I've offended you so badly
That I cannot be fixed,
Will I then be condemned
To a trip down the Styx?
I will give first fruits of sorrow,
Fall to my knees and repent,
In return, I ask only
That you hear my lament.
I will seek your kingdom first,
Asking for only your love,
But please banish these demons
I've become so afraid of.
I'm truly sorry, my Lord,
And yes, I'm afraid,
But that's not the reason
I regret the choice that I made.
I realize now that my actions
Have been insulting to you.
Disrespecting this life,
That by grace was made new.
Still, I beseech you, my Lord,
Albeit, after the fact,
Will you make my mind whole?
And bring my sanity back?
© Linda Troxell
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