Have been called the meanest things
By someone I call a partner
Have been called fat and ugly
Because I added weight after childbirth

Have been called worthless and useless
Have been called a liability

Have been abused emotionally,
verbally, physically
Have been damaged, traumatized
By someone I call a partner

With time I started believing him
So I hated myself

Oh! how I hated me
I hated me more than anything in the world

I was perfect
I had the perfect body
I was beautiful
I was good looking
Is this the price of bringing in a life?
Now I can’t recognize me in the mirror
Oh how I hated me

Then I hit the gym to loose weight
That was the initial plan
But I changed my mind
I’m still thick, very thick and curvy
But I don’t go to the gym to loose weight anymore
I go to the gym to stay healthy

Fuck my partner for calling me all those names
Fuck me for believing him

My soul’s beautiful
I am beautiful
I look good
I’m not worthless
Take it or leave it
Period!!!
© I.R.E.N.E.